I got rejected again...

Why do I even bother? I always get rejected anyways...

Why can't I like those that like me?

This is why I've only ever had one serious boyfriend in my entire nearly 19 years, and even then that was almost 3 years ago!

This is why I fantasise over Kame and Tomo and Seto and Yamamoto and Koki and such. At least in my head they like me 95% of the time and the other 5% they're dating each other...

Maybe I should become a lesbian...

でも、I don't regret it. It's better to ask and to find out and get it over and done with rather than holding on and hoping it'll work out and get even more hurt later on...

THIS is why I stay single and only go for guys I SERIOUSLY like... then it all happens again and it hits me worse...

At least... this time, I had support in the aftermath... from Jack, Karen and Haruka. <3